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Seeking Path Back to Life(0bin.net)
64 points by hestipod 9y ago|18 comments
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by hestipod 9y ago
Sure thing. I appreciate it :)
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by hestipod 9y ago
I've pretty much been smashed down to a Flatland version of Maslow's bottom levels so the deeper philosophical ideas of how to fix anything seem beyond me. I have no idea what there is left in that regard because even those closes
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by hestipod 9y ago
I'm always afraid of the negative attention with such political statements, but I most definitely feel left behind by America and am not a fan of it's priorities. I did what I was "supposed" to, paid into the system, wor
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by hestipod 9y ago
It just connected with the losses and changes of getting older and less self sufficient, and how those have been magnified in me since I was struck down before 30 with serious health issues so I experienced them earlier than I should have.
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by hestipod 9y ago
I do have a cat that brings me joy lest I sound joyless. She is often less appreciative of our relationship and I fear I may simply be a carefully manipulated treat dispenser in her eyes, but I love her anyway. Thanks for the compassion in
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by hestipod 9y ago
You misunderstand me, I disagree, and I don't know how to change that. I have heard the "people are willing to help IF you do X,Y,Z" thing so often and have seen that even when I change and extend myself and expend great and
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by hestipod 9y ago
Thanks. I know my email was there in the profile, even if cryptically in the info bit as others have written me. Maybe I changed a privacy setting inadvertently and will check. I dont want you to get spammed posting your email in the open h
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by hestipod 9y ago
"Gradually then suddenly" This phrase, it's context, and your follow up thought have affected me in a raw and uncomofortable way I wasn't expecting today.
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by hestipod 9y ago
I disagree with this notion advice is mostly rooted in similar experience. 15 years of anecdata anyway have shown me differently. It's mostly rooted in well meaning of course, and I am not implying people are being malicious or anythin
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by hestipod 9y ago
I'm not a programmer, cryptographer, sysadmin etc but I like tech and find this site refreshing because of the politeness and respect in interactions like this one. I can apologize and it will be taken at face value, and someone can ap
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by hestipod 9y ago
Hi. I am sorry to hear your situation is similar. My email is in my profile but I will be honest up front that I am dealing with so much right now that I wouldn't be a good friend and hate disappointing anyone so please don't expe
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by hestipod 9y ago
I've been in this situation to worsening degrees for 15 years...It really upsets me to hear people say I am causing it (self fulfilling) or not doing it right. I am glad you were able to make connections online...it's not somethin
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by hestipod 9y ago
I know you mean well, and I am not trying to argue for sport or be difficult, but it's not as simple as you imagine. I have health issues that prevent me from spending time down in the dirt gardening and I don't find it appealing
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by hestipod 9y ago
My life was destroyed by medical errors and my present situation is the culmination of things collapsing and not being able to shrink anymore. Been saying for ages I am gonna lay the story out here and hope for some miracle plan. Intend to
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by hestipod 9y ago
Well there is the rub...I can't do the hobbies I enjoy because of physical health or money or both. The other things that might provide SOME diversion or evolve into new hobbies aren't accessible here because I am isolated rurally
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by hestipod 9y ago
I am incredibly lonely. Health and financial circumstances pushed me into the worst possible social situation...isolated in rural unconnected America where the only two people I regularly see resent me and it has had a severely negative eff
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by hestipod 9y ago
Thanks. I have read Young and many other things during this journey. I have taken bits from all that help to some degree but nothing has been able to "completely change my life" as I see some say happened for them. It IS better th
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by hestipod 9y ago
I thought linking to other self posts was against the rules...is it allowed? I was also advised by several people to post early in the week and morning for best traffic. Friday evening seems the worst time to start new and this post will be
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by hestipod 9y ago
I had faith in the legal system to a degree as well before my experiences started. The doctors have more expensive lawyers and theirs and the hospital's insurance and business lobbies have succeeded in getting legal conditions set in t
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by hestipod 9y ago
I don't recall receiving any forms explaining risks at all let alone the outcomes I experienced, just consent for "the procedure", HIPPA, and "guarantee to pay them" forms etc while I had an IV in my arm and was bei
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by hestipod 9y ago
I have been down that road too and spent years in total heavily medicated with various things that just cost me a ton and added more problems. I was usually treated as if my side effects were attempts to get something "better" whe
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by hestipod 9y ago
I dont have references right now but I have continually heard that long term studies have proven that knee (which I have also had that made things worse) and back surgeries (those two common ones have been extensively studied) show no overa
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by hestipod 9y ago
The nutshell is don't ever have foot surgery unless it's to repair a catastrophic injury/trauma and there is no choice if you want to save the foot. The risk/failure rates are so high and not honestly explained. I was le
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by hestipod 9y ago
I was preparing to make a long post asking for ideas/help (been saying that for weeks but it's ready and I was waiting to Monday since weekends are slower) This sort of thing ruined my life, cost me everything, and has finally bro
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by hestipod 9y ago
I just wanted to answer the "why angry" question above. I have a LOT of relevant experience about this issue as both a provider and a victim. I just wanted to share that experience and explain the common behaviors. I don't wa
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by hestipod 9y ago
This is cool. I love reading Wikipedia so this will enable my habit.
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by hestipod 9y ago
Man come on. I was explaining why those who suffer long term get bitter and depressed. I used to be healthy and happy and helped others for a living and personally. I was an empathetic person even then and thought I understood how people wo
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by hestipod 9y ago
You have to realize it's not about YOU and not make it an ego thing where you get offended at a suffering person's reactions. People in need are ignored, blamed and screwed with constantly and it's a normal reaction to be dep
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by hestipod 9y ago
The anger comes from, in personal experience, being taken out of society by things outside of your control, and whenever you ask for help being treated like a lazy beggar who has a lot of nerve even asking to survive. It comes from seeing t

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