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by hestipod 7y ago
Because as someone said below it's not going to fix things just by being in another place I like better. Being illegal is a hard life with constant risk and lack of access to many things. It's not "really easy" at all an
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by hestipod 7y ago
Thank you for your kindness, but it won't happen. It's not happened in all these years and the need and issues are worse now. If I had been born in the first world with a proper social safety net I would have had help rebuilding f
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by hestipod 7y ago
Medicaid as it exists denies a lot of people for various reasons. It has poor coverage and providers aren't obligated to take it so many do not. Simply closing the AHCA/Medicaid gap in the red states who refused to do so years ago
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by hestipod 7y ago
I know...and thank you. I just wanted to be clear I am appreciative of empathetic and kind people. There is enough victim blaming and defensiveness from the masses in the world as it is...I don' want to alienate good people nor harm th
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by hestipod 7y ago
That's not something I feel would help me in any way to get into publicly. It's multiple very difficult issues with no cure and little understanding even (legitimate and diagnosed...not quackwatch sort of stuff...just not common n
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by hestipod 7y ago
While there is a lot of truth in what you say from my experience as well, and I can be defensive from all the disappointment and ineffective advice and often outright attack and blame over the years, I try to remember people mostly DO mean
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by hestipod 7y ago
I apologize for any defensiveness. I am exhausted and tired of being in pain, poor, and alone. I am often criticized and blamed and it conditions you to expect bad from people. I try to stay aware many people mean well but sometimes I overr
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by hestipod 7y ago
It's depressing (ha!) how accurate this cynical sounding stuff is. I have had to be really cautious as my usually avoidant and blaming family have threatened to try and have me locked up by exaggerating things when I have told them how
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by hestipod 7y ago
I don't have a financial strain bankruptcy would fix. I cannot walk away from current needs for medical care, housing, food etc. I am getting worse not better which equals more needs and cost with less to no resources. You cannot sign
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by hestipod 7y ago
I've been there and been that digital nomad. I have lived in cheaper countries. I've taught English. Those things sound romantic and if you are healthy and have special skills you can have a good life. If you are not healthy and a
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by hestipod 7y ago
I have. In fact the once in a lifetime offer I got from a member here, the only real help in all these years, was to work remotely and live in Europe. My only real friends are there and my previous doctors there were wonderful so that is th
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by hestipod 7y ago
So many people think judges are some elevated ethical beings like we imagine as kids. They are mostly lawyers who are appointed or elected politically. The administrative law judge for my social assistance applications was hostile and overt
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by hestipod 7y ago
I've been trying to move back abroad since I returned to the USA. It's not as easy as people think in the best of times to immigrate, let alone when you are in such bad shape all around. No place takes broken and relatively broke
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by hestipod 7y ago
I appreciate the advice. I may not have been clear in my rant but I am not in legal debt presently. If it were medical debt from a recoverable position and with support it would be a different story. I have skirted it by paying up front fro
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by hestipod 7y ago
I lived abroad in the past. Had a much better life and healthcare. But now that savings is so small and my health so limited I cannot just "move". I wouldn't be able to sustain myself financially. There are immigration requir
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by hestipod 7y ago
My life was ruined by badly done, and even worse ultimately unneeded surgery. That privilege initially cost me many thousands, along with career and insurance going away, and the subsequent struggle to survive since has cost multiples of th
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by hestipod 7y ago
I surmised in my case had to do with life experiences and emotional growth allowing me to see things differently, but maybe that's self righteous nonsense. All I know is I can enjoy a lot more art than I used to and I am glad for it.
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by hestipod 7y ago
I agree it comes across as incredibly disingenuous and unnatural. It's like a salesperson saying your name over and over. It's not normal and FEELS like a performance to elicit a response. I don't know why reasonable and hone
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by hestipod 7y ago
I would love to see some of his stuff up close. I live in rural nowhere middle Murica so it's not accessible. I have heard it's pretty amazing to see how big they truly are. Nothing is as good as in person. I recall seeing the Mon
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by hestipod 7y ago
I don't know if it's the same for everyone, but I know with age and I hope "maturity" I appreciate many more forms of art. Things I didn't have the life experience or emotional depth to grasp when I was younger can
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by hestipod 7y ago
What I don't understand is how those who choose profits over people, or do other such provably horrible things, can then stand up and say they are not doing said thing everyone can see and record them doing. I don't understand wha
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by hestipod 7y ago
"There must be some detail not reported to the public that made it make sense." Is something people say over and over to try NOT to accept bad things happen a lot to innocent people. It's not always in bad faith and I am not
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by hestipod 7y ago
I use it in the distant past for language and photography socializing in a big capital city. I looked not long ago and most groups were now tech based that were clearly startup pitches and other "business" related things instead o
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by hestipod 7y ago
I will not likely be around much longer and there seems to be no way to ensure my remains are used for good or just flushed and not lining someone's pocket. You cannot even just be disposed of...you have to pay four figures at least j
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by hestipod 7y ago
It's so frustrating to see people deny truths because they don't like them. I know what you say to be true. I have experienced it and have seen many other victims of medical malpractice experience it. Money always wins and doctors
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by hestipod 7y ago
Seeing how many people prioritize fashion over function...in this topic, and life in general, depresses me. Calibre works very well and you have people saying they "can't" use it because it's not pretty enough. It's
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by hestipod 7y ago
That's interesting, but I am sorry you have to deal with it. Thanks for following up.
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by hestipod 7y ago
Off topic but can you expound? I was "floxxed" with joint pain etc long ago...but have never heard of the caffeine related effects. Is it all caffeine? ie chocolate/pills too?
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by hestipod 7y ago
I have done that, repeatedly over many decades, and most of them have made me worse to the point nothing can be done IF you find a good one. You can't be an expert in everything and often learn someone is bad too late. Since I live in
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by hestipod 7y ago
Friend married a Russian cardiac surgeon, one with 20 years of experience, brilliant woman. She was not allowed to practice in the US without years of redoing residency and entry level exams and loads of money. She ended up changing careers

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