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by hestipod 7y ago
You have been kind from the very beginning, but the sort of open ended questions and wishful thinking is rage inducing and makes me feel like a bad person and makes people turn on your harder when they upset you. "Surely there is...why
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by hestipod 7y ago
It's not freedom to "accept" being permanently and worsenginly sick and homeless or constantly living under that threat. It's not freedom to "accept" being in severe pain every day. It's not freedom to be
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by hestipod 7y ago
I am not in NY and it costs a lot more than that as a rule. But that's not even the issue. getting a flight is not a block. It's how to survive long term financially when there. How to legalize without some immigration means which
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by hestipod 7y ago
I am so stressed, distressed, angry, in pain that I don't even know at this point. I need stability so I can assess things. See what the baseline is without all this bullshit here. I need to get back to Warsaw where I lived before and
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by hestipod 7y ago
Yes of course. Fought for it with lawyers for years. Denied despite evidence by a very biased judge. Appealed. Same judge denied again. The system is broken. I am out of credits to apply now. I have done everything you are supposed to and t
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by hestipod 7y ago
I won't make it through the end of the year and it's all preventable. Nearly everything I see posted about suicidal people from non-suicidal people, and ESPECIALLY doctors get it wrong and avoids root causes in some self serving a
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by hestipod 7y ago
HN doesn't allow endless comment nesting to prevent arguing so this has reached a rate limit. This isn't me not hanging on anymore than telling someone drowning with weight around their neck and more added with time to just "
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by hestipod 7y ago
I cannot afford to live anywhere without help and even the poor quality help with mean and resentful family that I have where I am now is going away. I haven't just NOT tried to find alternatives. I've fought and failed for years.
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by hestipod 7y ago
Even if it were legal where I am...and it's not because of more American nonsense...I cannot afford it. I cannot afford MORE expense and am already sinking as it is. And again at this point pain control is like splinting the sprained a
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by hestipod 7y ago
I have tried multiple radiothermal sympathectomies in Europe to some effect, ruled out spinal cord stimulators years ago after talking to docs in Europe I trusted and patients who were unsatisfied with them (plus the cost is insane). Every
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by hestipod 7y ago
Orthopedic surgeries on lower limbs that was never needed...made even worse by another round of surgery meant to "fix" the first wrong one. The second was done incorrectly as well and was something different than I even consented
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by hestipod 7y ago
I am not just playing emo and choosing not to go on because life is a drag. I have lost everything and everyone and live in severe pain and just existing takes all my energy. I have tried over and over again to work enough to have some sort
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by hestipod 7y ago
I was advised to have surgery I didn't need and it ruined my life. I will be ending it soon because of all the pain and loss and abandonment and not one of them will care or help prevent that outcome because they got paid. Nobody said
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by hestipod 7y ago
I am greatly offended by your post. I don't understand why people use the same excuses like survivorship bias over and over again when they are so obviously unfair and wrong. I don't understand why people need to prop up their own
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by hestipod 7y ago
Like most behavior in living things, cats are a product of their environment, how they are treated, how their needs are met. Lots of people "do it wrong" then blame the animal. The family I live with for a while longer went throug
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by hestipod 7y ago
In my experience moving from a culture that's miserable for you can make all the difference. I have lived in places that were night and day from where I am now and want to get back but cannot find a sustainable way. If you are moving f
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by hestipod 7y ago
My email is in my profile if you are inclined. I would be interested to know if you have come across ideas I have not. It's usually somewhere from nothing to useless on the advice scale. Then you have to not only deal with disappointme
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by hestipod 7y ago
I hear you. I was denied all SSDI etc after years of fighting. Credits expired entirely now. I am "too poor" for a subsidized ACA plan. If I was a little MORE poor I could get one but you know how it is balancing things as one cha
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by hestipod 7y ago
I think it's great you are working to better lives and applaud that. It's not for lack of effort by the truly good people that things are like this. It's not a failure of yours and those like you. The failure is of the selfis
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by hestipod 7y ago
Sorry you experienced that. I understand you intimately for all the good that does. I've been both provider and patient and know how wrong it all is here. I have been done with this country for a long time, but every attempt to stabili
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by hestipod 7y ago
I've spent every night for the last few months trying to find a way/reason to keep going mentally. Before that it was every other night, a few times a week, few times a month etc. Before the inciting event for this decline, badly
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by hestipod 7y ago
Suffering isn't a competition and you live your own pain. Worse doesn't matter. We should all be there for each other and nobody should be left behind but there are too many selfish people who try and justify that selfishness to m
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by hestipod 7y ago
I didn't downvote you if it matters. I agree with you about society, but American culture does not in large. Even the family who has seen this happen to me is still staunchly hard right and against their taxes funding any social progra
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by hestipod 7y ago
"there is no version of the future that is better with you gone" While I appreciate you as an individual, the above has objectively been proven false. Throughout this entire thing from the first surgery that took me out, no system
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by hestipod 7y ago
I was born in the USA...lived abroad for a time...had to return to the USA as my health deteriorated as a result of the American surgeries, which resulted in work aspect of European immigration failing, and then fiancee abandoned me right b
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by hestipod 7y ago
This is me. Bad surgery and a failure of all the supposed support systems to help has ruined my life. Burned nearly everything I earned for my future. I've tried to get out of the US back to Europe where I lived before but the very los
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by hestipod 7y ago
He was not wrong. So many people define right and wrong by some system of made up rules and laws, and if someone breaks those rules or laws, even for right, people still say "they should be held accountable" as if the rule and law
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by hestipod 7y ago
I am not a sw engineer and cannot work consistently or enough to earn like a normal person. That's the entire problem. My health was ruined and my finances decimated. Since without social aid your health is required to work and buy a l
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by hestipod 7y ago
When the system is a competition for even the most basic human needs people will judge and define others by anything that puts them a rung up on those others. People are very fast to put people into "deserve" and "doesn'
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by hestipod 7y ago
Answered above. I cannot work in any consistent and significant way and without enough money and legal status none of the things you have when ill are available. It's not just about a location. I can't live rough or in an unstable

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