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by gavinray 4mo ago
He would tell you that he's sorry he let you and everyone else around him down. That he didn't get to fix the bridges he burned, and mend the people he hurt. That every time he came down from his high and was lying in bed unable t
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by gavinray 4mo ago
Thank you Brandon, you're a good bit more talented than me in my $0.02 but it's been awesome to work with you, too =)
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by gavinray 4mo ago
Yes, it was Methylone (and advertised as such, nobody cared as long as it worked). NBOMe was really popular in my town during my late teens as well for the same reasons. RIP Sasha, PiHKaL and TiHKaL were, stereotypically, staple books on my
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by gavinray 4mo ago
I think it's a bit of a mix of both. I could not have climbed out of the hole I dug on my own, that I am almost CERTAIN of. At the same time, if I had felt as though I were owed "more", and indignant about being "wronged
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by gavinray 4mo ago
I was fortunate to have the help of others ("No man is an island unto himself") but I do think that having the mindset of not being owed anything helped me keep a positive perspective when things were their worst. I'm not pol
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by gavinray 4mo ago
> I'm curious how many with similar stories think they would have or could have taken a different path with better or different parental support? I'm sorry to hear about your kid. I'll be honest with you: it depend
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by gavinray 4mo ago
I will not get started on the US Criminal "Justice" system. I could write a book on the horrors I saw in there. We need a bigger emphasis on rehabilitation. It ultimately costs LESS for society. I can also tell you from my 3 years
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This is true. It requires a combination of luck, support, and persistence. You can help cultivate "luck" to a degree by increasing your number of experiences. Every person you happen across could be the one to change your life, an
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by gavinray 4mo ago
> How can someone get up in such a difficult situation? The alternative is even bleaker
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by gavinray 4mo ago
Hell yeah, congrats on 10 years of living actual life.
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by gavinray 4mo ago
> and less likely to be high always while programming It depends on the drug. If you're an amphetamine/meth addict (or other designer stimulants), you very well might be coding for days on end. I certainly was. It will
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by gavinray 4mo ago
I'll be honest -- if the pace of AI improvement continues at the current rate, I'm not sure I'll have a job in a few years' time. Right now, the reason why you need humans in the loop is because you need someone with dee
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by gavinray 4mo ago
Thank you for asking. I didn't want to disclose it publicly, but when we met she was in a very bad place in life and actually had a planned suicide date. It wasn't until years later she told me this. We were able to send her back
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by gavinray 4mo ago
I love this question! Because yes, this one has a happy ending =) I had estranged my mother, didn't really talk to my adoptive father, and purposefully kept my maternal grandparents (who I am closest with) in the dark because I didn&#x
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by gavinray 4mo ago
> When I came into a position to make my own hiring calls, I tried paying that forward, and I got some great employees from it. Arguably a couple duds as well, but I never regretting giving the chance. That is the most impactful
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by gavinray 4mo ago
Sorry I'm not dead (yet), maybe next go-round of the universe?
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by gavinray 4mo ago
The job market is rough. My wife went back to school for audio/sound design, finished the program + got a bunch of certifications. She's been trying to get anything, even an unpaid internship, doing sound design, going to local me
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by gavinray 4mo ago
That's horrible but also a stark reminder for how quickly life can change for any one of us...
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by gavinray 4mo ago
I'm glad! It sounds really corny, but someone once told me "The only thing you can choose in life is your attitude." Sometimes it felt like I'd never get a break, things wouldn't get better. But I tried to tell myse
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by gavinray 4mo ago
Also recommend folks check out Unlocked Labs, who run a prison program for this sort of thing. Jessica is an angel: https://unlockedlabs.org/
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by gavinray 4mo ago
> sobriety doesn’t guarantee that AI companies won’t kill off what’s left of your career You're being downvoted, but I'd be lying if I said I don't see that as a distinct (and logical) possibility. The ironic thing
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by gavinray 4mo ago
I'll be honest, a lot of it was my wife. And also hitting my lowest bottom after becoming homeless and penniless. So a combination of looking at what I had done to myself + everyone around me and going "what the fuck." and my
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by gavinray 4mo ago
Thank you!!
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Building from zero after addiction, prison, and a felony(gavinray97.github.io)
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by gavinray 4mo ago
Julian Hyde (Apache Calcite author) has a side project called Morel Morel is an ML dialect that can compile set-producing expressions into bytecode that Calcite can execute against databases Sort of like "If you could query anything wi
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by gavinray 4mo ago
I'll also make the argument that type systems in languages are purely additive rather than orthogonal. What I mean by that is, I used to write JS. Transitioning to TypeScript didn't alter my mental model of the language. Likewise
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People will talk down on this because it's Microsoft, but I use Terminal + WSL2 and have been waiting for Cursor-like functionality to be integrated. I don't want to download more programs and pay more subscriptions, so I'm q
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There's no magic secret beyond eating well and being physically active
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This exists! Estetrol (E4) is a very strange estrogen that acts as an ERR antagonist in breast tissue but normally in most other receptors. https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC8658652/ > Recent studies
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by gavinray 4mo ago
My body's "baseline" is zero, my Leydig's cells no longer function to produce FSH/TSH, which is the expected outcome of a decade of AAS use. Bloodwork from no Testosterone usage puts my T around 90ng/dL, or the

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