cypherofreal1ty

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by cypherofreal1ty 2y ago
How longterm is it on average? Because i cant live with the person i am :(
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Ask HN: Are drastic changes to our personality and thought process possibe?
1 points by cypherofreal1ty 2y ago|4 comments
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by cypherofreal1ty 3y ago
believing my own bullshit only made things worse for me since i thought i am smart enough to do it tomorrow and never did. i need something different since i have had tried to improve so many times :(
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by cypherofreal1ty 3y ago
I want to work hard, but i am not even able to do the bare minimum work that is needed. Second, i want to work in such a way that i derive enough value (money) and not still be at the mercy of inflation and the various financial "Traps
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by cypherofreal1ty 3y ago
Could you maybe mentor me? xD
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by cypherofreal1ty 3y ago
Of course i am depressed, i have had some other revelations in the past 2 years that have shattered my psyche even more. You see, i was raised in a family where there is strong belief in God and living a good, honest and hard working life.
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by cypherofreal1ty 3y ago
Haha :D i would have loved it if that was possible.
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by cypherofreal1ty 3y ago
i am honestly not even that good a person to my loved ones, that makes things worse. i just wanna be a successful person who doesn't have to worry about money and tech is a good way to get there since i don't really know how to de
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by cypherofreal1ty 3y ago
i have had goals like that and i did nill to achieve them and i hate myself for it.
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by cypherofreal1ty 3y ago
Since we live in a winner-take-all society, one has to morph to be able to thrive in such an environment and i want to. i am from a place where the killer instinct is a necessity and the price of failure is too high (believe me, i know it v
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by cypherofreal1ty 3y ago
You could be onto something there, i have tried this and it works but i am not able to be anywhere close to as productive as i should be and i do not know why
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by cypherofreal1ty 3y ago
How long did it take for the meds to work? I have to different doses for a month each but did not see any effect, partly because i would sometimes not take the med on time.
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by cypherofreal1ty 3y ago
i did consult an adhd specialist who said that i am unlikely to have it. and i don't have hyperfocus either, which seems to be common in adhd. even though i have tried to trick myself into getting interested in scientific and technical
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by cypherofreal1ty 3y ago
I am not even able to do that, and that is the problem, I am not even a run-of-the-mill human and since atleast a decade, (atleast i thought or fantasized that) i have always wanted to be this driven person who achieves great things, and ea
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Ask HN: How do I acquire an overachiever personality like the typical HN user?
12 points by cypherofreal1ty 3y ago|45 comments
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Late bloomers who made a comeback from rock bottom, how did you do it?
3 points by cypherofreal1ty 3y ago|1 comments
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by cypherofreal1ty 3y ago
i honestly dont know if this is an excuse but very frequently when i try to study, through lectures or textual content, i start feeling drowsy very quickly. i have been told this is not uncommon but idk
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by cypherofreal1ty 3y ago
cptsd or not, i have realized i am pretty inflexible as well, which has really stalled my personal growth
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by cypherofreal1ty 3y ago
Thanks a lot for chatting with me :) What do you think i should do now? It is possible that i have no technical acumen and may not have anywhere close to an exceptional intellect to fulfill my dreams. That combined with the strong aversion
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by cypherofreal1ty 3y ago
For a few years, my single mom had to raise me and we did not spend a lot of time together as she worked during the day and only came home at night, but from what i can remember, she has been a good parent always and i was the one who would
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by cypherofreal1ty 3y ago
i can definitely see some similarities from a brief read up on cptsd but i don't know if it could affect me so badly that i literally procrastinated years away on things that i have been told are necessary, partly due to delusions of s
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by cypherofreal1ty 3y ago
Good to hear your wife got better :) I skimmed over maladaptive freeze response and from what i could understand, it affects a person in situations which were stressful for them in the past, but for me, i haven't had any extreme trauma
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by cypherofreal1ty 3y ago
The thing, is that this is not just about fitting in society (although that is an important part f it), but the most major one that has doomed me is some kind of aversion to just "doing" things, and i mean any thing, like exercise
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by cypherofreal1ty 3y ago
i consulted an adhd specialist who said i am unlikely to have adhd, but could possibly have a personality disorder. i was supposed to go for another session later on but she had implied that i am only mentally capable enough to be a bagboy&
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by cypherofreal1ty 3y ago
I have been seeking mental healthcare but i am not sure they understand the severity of my problems. i was prescribed meds but i keep missing to take them on time, as per suggested schedule. this makes me doubt whether i have a mental probl
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How do I figure out if I have some mental disorder or I am just dumb, lazy?
4 points by cypherofreal1ty 3y ago|20 comments