I also have a similar struggle right now with similar ambitions. I’ve been finding that while I want to do many of these things idealistically, in reality I did

I also have a similar struggle right now with similar ambitions. I’ve been finding that while I want to do many of these things idealistically, in reality I didn’t end up actually doing them and just idealizing in a sort of paralysis of getting to my end goal. I’ve been learning the balance of pursuing these things when I’m interested and to not stress about simply watching television. I’m not probably going to be the next hot shot OSS contributor or project creator, but a few patches and features here and there is actually more than enough. Day by day is great advice for long term happiness (and productivity), and as Bruce Lee says: “I fear not the man who has practiced 10,000 kicks once, but I fear the man who had practiced one kick 10,000 times”