I've been working towards an idea like this part time while scrambling to make ends meet with low paying contracts from Upwork. Most of which is a waste of time

I've been working towards an idea like this part time while scrambling to make ends meet with low paying contracts from Upwork. Most of which is a waste of time. I am starting to think that bootstrapping doesn't make sense anymore. When everyone and their mom is getting money thrown at them. I have been built so many MVPs and projects by myself at this point. I suspect that the real reason I am doing it is because I just don't have a good social network etc. and so it's a stretch for me to raise money.