In psychology, it all stems from childhood. Clearly there is something from the family. I would find a therapist that can help you properly explore your child

In psychology, it all stems from childhood. Clearly there is something from the family. I would find a therapist that can help you properly explore your childhood and how it is affecting you today. I had trouble in my early career because of feelings of not belonging, being afraid to ask for help, feeling powerless. Turns out, it was because I didn't get warm fuzzy attention as a child.