When I was 19, with childhood bullying issues at school and with my stepmother, low self esteem, parents separated when I was three months old, I realized I was

When I was 19, with childhood bullying issues at school and with my stepmother, low self esteem, parents separated when I was three months old, I realized I was not somebody who could have a family. I just don't have the confidence, I don't have the friend network, and I'm just unable to deal with dating women with all the mixed messages and how women have internalized misogyny and sexism, which often makes relationships difficult. I support feminism, but I don't have the emotional intelligence to handle the problems women go through. It's not that I don't want a family, it's mostly that I don't care.