Yeah, i am totally aware that this isn't something that most people have the opportunity to do, but it still doesn't feel right to me. I find the phases of doin

Yeah, i am totally aware that this isn't something that most people have the opportunity to do, but it still doesn't feel right to me. I find the phases of doing evil stuff extremely taxing. They usually end when I have a mental breakdown and am forced to quit in order to save my mental health.