Society, "Why don't you move to a cheaper place to live?" Answer, "I've lived in this county for years. My youth is pretty much gone. I barely have saving fo

Society, "Why don't you move to a cheaper place to live?" Answer, "I've lived in this county for years. My youth is pretty much gone. I barely have saving for this months rent, let alone moving expenses to a new city. Plus--the few friends I kinda have are my only emotional, and sometimes financial support ("Could I borrow $300 until next month friend. I have never not payed you back?"). Society, "Just do something. Work on cars? Do non-union construction work?". Answer, "The rules of my rental agreement state I can't work on any vechicle on their property. The town will fine me overnight parking, and any disabled vechicles. My hand tools are not sufficient. I need a minimum of two jacks, and four jack stands, and my tranny jack. Non-union construction work will not pay my rent, let alone any bills." Society, "The immigrants seems happy? Come on dude? You seem like a entitled American?" Answer, "Many have a support system. Many pool their money. I have no one to pool my resources with." Society, "Move back home?". Answer, "There is no home to move back to." Society, "Don't you have family to help you out?" Answer, "I do, but they arn't in much better shape than me." Society, "I just don't get it. You are brighter than me, but you are so pathetic?" Answer, "I just don't feel well. I tried Prozac, Escitalopram, Klonopin, Lexapro, the isomer to Lexapro, Trazadone (could end up in an icu with a needle in your brain due to a bad reaction), tri-cyclic antidepressants, off labeled Bupenorpine for depression (which works at first, but then you are just addicted. Small studies done, and not long term. I doubt placebo controlled.), and all the other medications I see on tv. My sleep is reversed, and I just lost hope, but haven't given up." Society, "Don't forget about Therapy? Therapy did wonders for my mother. She has no desire to shop-lift from Nordstrum's anymore.". (Nordstrom's looks up your buying habits before filing charges with the authorities. Doctor's wives are never turned in. Minorities are handed over with glee. Off topic--sorry.) Answer, "I was till tapping the register at work to pay for the visits. After 6 months, I was no better. The therapist said, "But it takes years of Therapy to get better! Just hang in there!" (THIS IS NOT ME. I own a home. I just have known too many homeless individuals. Seen a few Programmers age out of the industry, and end up in a thicket of Scotch Broom. Cops wake them up. A locked porta potty greets them after the wake-up call. It's not just loosing a job. It's having an emotional hiccup in your 20's. Life is very fragile for certain people. They are usually to proud to tell anyone until it becomes to late, and when they'd o reach out, their is usually zero real help.)