Yeah this is probably a good point, and possibly what is happening. I just never really have gotten any feedback about it, so I can't know. I am proud of what

Yeah this is probably a good point, and possibly what is happening. I just never really have gotten any feedback about it, so I can't know. I am proud of what I have done, and happy I have learned so much doing it. And I should also say I have for the most part given up ever getting a computer job, I do a couple of hail marys here and there, but mostly these days just focus on the niche highly undesired things I actually love (like elisp and supercollider), instead of forcing myself to enjoy react or svelte or whatever. It has made me quite happy to give up, I just like to learn and make art, I can be happy as a lowly receptionist if I can keep doing that. :)