I don’t think someone slacking off would post on hn as emotionally agnostic as op. It does sound like there’s a fair amount of gaslighting though, if you associ

I don’t think someone slacking off would post on hn as emotionally agnostic as op. It does sound like there’s a fair amount of gaslighting though, if you associate ‘the performance of the project’ with yourself as a junior, that’s on your manager - if you screw up, it’s their fault for not providing top cover. I employ one full timer and another junior, most screwup’s are my miscommunications or me not setting expectations. @op, Mind if I ask, are you part of any minorities which may result in you being bullied? Obviously you don’t have to answer, and I don’t want to gaslight you, but a lot of *ist behaviour I see is smart enough to be camouflaged. To be clear though, junior’s screwing up is par for the course, if you’re a net zero (bring in as much income/productivity as you burn in screwups, but with the ability to learn), I’d consider you a win.