I think something like this happened to me as well, but on the other end. I was not pushed in any direction and I struggled through life until my existence was

I think something like this happened to me as well, but on the other end. I was not pushed in any direction and I struggled through life until my existence was threatened by a brain hemorrhage. I wrote a self-published book on the topic, it still needs work, but at least I finished it. https://www.scottrlarson.com/books/book-most-improved/ https://www.scottrlarson.com/books/book-most-improved/ Something changed in me after that and I learned a new way of living with the help of the Constructive Living practice by David K. Reynolds and the works of James Allen.