I'm personally having a bit of a crisis. I'm 33 and our first baby is due in a few months, and things that simply bothered me before about my own lack of achie

I'm personally having a bit of a crisis. I'm 33 and our first baby is due in a few months, and things that simply bothered me before about my own lack of achievement nearly send me in to a panic if I think about them now. This isn't because I fear I won't have enough time to work on things (although that doesn't help), but because I now have someone I need to provide for. To sum of my life's story, I'm intelligent (like most on here) but suffered a concussion when I was 12 that made me ridiculously tired until I figured out how to treat it in my mid-twenties, though it still limits me in ways. My life's plan for the past 7 years to work around this was to do photography in the summer and my own coding projects in the winter. I haven't been especially successful at either. On the coding side I developed a pixel art application for the Wii U which my publisher also ported over to the 3DS. It was definitely worth the time I put in to it, but at most I barely broke 6 figures. I wanted to make a quick sequel for the Switch but Nintendo has denied my request for a devkit without reason three separate times. I also developed some extensions for Photoshop which were not worth the time I put in to them, though I did get a job offer out of the deal which I turned down. I didn't think my programming skills would be up to the task and the timing was poor for me to be able to "catch up." On the photography side...I'm more successful than most, but I'm nowhere near where I thought I would be at this point. I charge below $3,000 per wedding and only do about 17 a year. I'd love to expand my high school senior side of the business as it's what I enjoy doing the most. I think it's also my best work and by far better than anyone in my area - I think it stands up against some of the best in the country. No matter what I try I can't seem to expand that part of my business, and my biggest competitor in the area seems to do at least 10x the numbers that I do. This is hard to work on because any time I even think about it I spiral mentally downwards. My immediate goals are to not let my depression over the above affect my pregnant wife too much. I've always dreamed of being an indie game developer and I've started and stopped developing a few games over the past few years because I realized I didn't have the time to work on them or lost the thread and my ambition after doing photography in the summer. I'm now developing a simple game that I'm sure won't sell well, but at this point I just want to make something.