Coming from Europe (Poland) I hate the politicians for it. My school experience was a nightmare. My friendships went away. My apartment was always a mess. I cou

Coming from Europe (Poland) I hate the politicians for it. My school experience was a nightmare. My friendships went away. My apartment was always a mess. I couldn't hold to any project for more than a few weeks. I was struggling with simple everyday thing like paying bills (had electricity cut off several times because of missed bills), keeping any kind of commitment, making any kind of change in my life. I think the best description of it is executive function disorder. I was even diagnosed as a child (very rare back in the day) but all they focused on was the hyperactive part. They made me attend useless therapy sessions, blamed me for everything and labeled a lazy not caring child. No one ever even mentioned medication. The hyperactive part went away when I was around 13. I was healed or so they thought. Still lazy, still wasting my potential, still couldn't learn to sit quietly in place but not stirring trouble anymore. My life was a disaster since graduating high school. I dropped from university. Lost contact with most friends, started gambling for living - I was good at math and reasoning and it was easy back then to make living at it. I never had any kind of job nor hold any kind of marketable skill. And then I met someone who gave stimulants to me. It was night and day difference instantly. My apartment was suddenly clean. My bills were paid. I started learning programming again. I founded a small software company which got very successful. I started a relationship, reconnected with some friends. Started doing sports, stopped missing appointments. I even got officially diagnosed with ADHD in my thirties. It took a while to find about one place in my country that diagnoses adults. Most doctors didn't even want to talk to me as they thought I just want to get stimulants to get high. It's a humiliating experience when you hear a doctor after doctor telling you it doesn't exist, that I just want stimulants or that maybe I should get a calendar and organize my life. It's still not perfect. The only stimulant I can legally get here is Ritalin which has very unpleasant side effects. I can get Modafinil on black market which is too mild but doesn't have sides and makes things a bit better. Trying to get Adderall can land me in jail. It's usually a mix of small doses of Modafinil and either caffeine or very small Ritalin dose. This way I can get a few productive hours a day. Maybe 4. If I can get 4 I am happy. It was a good day and I don't hate myself after. I have one thing to say to self righteous moralizing politicians and doctors in Europe. Go fuck yourself. I am lucky to be born with above average IQ and not trusting you much. To do my reading and being able to get stuff on the black market. You still caused my life to be a constant struggle for 2 decades. I know there are people who never realized the change is possible and their suffering is to satisfy your moral convictions. So why exactly are you horrified? Is there a pleasure in watching people struggle and being able to get help? Is it some kind of God given destiny they have to deal with? Are you horrified when people get insulin to treat Diabetes as well or TRT to treat androgen deficiency? I have heard such comments a lot and all I hear is: "you should suffer your destiny, we don't help people here".