First I would like to thank you all that have commented and gave me their best advice. I want to reply to all your comments, but I feel I still need more time

First I would like to thank you all that have commented and gave me their best advice. I want to reply to all your comments, but I feel I still need more time for introspection and to think about what was discussed here. The best thing about HN is there are so many beautiful, intelligent people with different perspectives and that helps a lot when trying to change my own perspective about life.