For me, being present but not available with my family is some kind of hell, like the end of Interstellar looking at your family after you've gone - ever presen

For me, being present but not available with my family is some kind of hell, like the end of Interstellar looking at your family after you've gone - ever present but out of reach. But I've been suffering from the emotional fallout of going back to work full-time after having a family already - this just rubs it in extra deep.