I had a complicated family situation that made it impossible for me to have any sort of peace of mind. You have to get out of that, first. You said it yoursel

I had a complicated family situation that made it impossible for me to have any sort of peace of mind. You have to get out of that, first. You said it yourself. You named that as the root cause. If it won't realistically go away easily, you have to make it go away the hard way, whatever that is. If it's just a matter of waiting for court cases to resolve, I think you can already start putting the past behind you and moving forward. But I'm assuming in my answer here that there is more to it.