The desire to be noncomformant or know secrets is a desire for a small social in group that is relatable vs belonging to the alienating mass. This is basically

The desire to be noncomformant or know secrets is a desire for a small social in group that is relatable vs belonging to the alienating mass. This is basically why cults exist. The motive is fundamentally social. Search for Dunbar's number, the maximum "social horizon" size for most humans.