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I am in a somewhat similar position, although I can't say that I have a solid career. I've started through working on a startup and then miserably failed, wast

I am in a somewhat similar position, although I can't say that I have a solid career. I've started through working on a startup and then miserably failed, wasting three years. Then worked for a small company making money saving and useful services for them, but nothing extraordinary. Then I tried again. And I failed again. I was disciplined. I planned and worked hard for half a year, having nothing to show for it in the end. To the point, when I just sat and said that I won't do anything code related until I understand where I lack understanding. I've come to understand that my main problem is fear. Fear of rejection of things that I do. Fear that anything that I can share is of not enough quality to be shareable. Fear of being not appropriate to the people online, or expressing opinions that I have no right to express. So, now I am working directly with fear. Will see where it will lead me.

howard941 8y ago
FFS this comment resonates so deeply. I don't understand how to work directly with fear except for being completely occupied so as to make rumination impossible. Can you share any pointers?
- michael_leachim 8y ago
  Several things that I am working with now: 1) Doing what is difficult. (Started commenting on here, planning to share some of my work here and on Reddit). 2) Asking myself whether I am doing the right thing or avoiding it. (That is when you can spend 3 months in refactoring when you really should just make a landing and share the thing everywhere gathering feedback and iterating along the way) 3) Constant exposure. I am planning to take some work in sales (which I dread). That should help with breaking barriers. 4) Observing the mind. A form of mindfulness approach that warrants its own larger explanation. Now, I am nearly at the beginning of this journey, but I think I will be able to figure it all out. Hope this helps.
  - howard941 8y ago
    Thank you

howard941 8y ago

FFS this comment resonates so deeply. I don't understand how to work directly with fear except for being completely occupied so as to make rumination impossible. Can you share any pointers?

michael_leachim 8y ago
Several things that I am working with now: 1) Doing what is difficult. (Started commenting on here, planning to share some of my work here and on Reddit). 2) Asking myself whether I am doing the right thing or avoiding it. (That is when you can spend 3 months in refactoring when you really should just make a landing and share the thing everywhere gathering feedback and iterating along the way) 3) Constant exposure. I am planning to take some work in sales (which I dread). That should help with breaking barriers. 4) Observing the mind. A form of mindfulness approach that warrants its own larger explanation. Now, I am nearly at the beginning of this journey, but I think I will be able to figure it all out. Hope this helps.
- howard941 8y ago
  Thank you