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Most likely: raise money, start a business and spend the rest of the year dealing with GERD. I don't know how people do such things so nonchalantly, so oblivio

Most likely: raise money, start a business and spend the rest of the year dealing with GERD. I don't know how people do such things so nonchalantly, so oblivious to the near-certainty of total failure. I never feel ready enough for anything. There is always more to check, elaborate, investigate, experiment, compare, prepare, plan, ponder, defend ... I am never ready enough. Never. But I also don't feel like playing "what if?" for the rest of my life. I've already spent a lot of it spinning wheels and I currently have relatively little to lose. If not this year: when? There's no less-shittier time, really. So if you were sick of me talking about BOSH, Cloud Foundry and Pivotal, buckle up. At some point you'll be sick of me talking about Robojar.

sgarman 9y ago
Any tips for dealing with GERD? My doctor hasn't really helped at all.
- jacques_chester 9y ago
  I may have been using poetic license. For me it's usually responded to medication.
adventured 9y ago
> I don't know how people do such things so nonchalantly, so oblivious to the near-certainty of total failure I've been starting Internet companies since I was a teenager in the mid 1990s. I've failed a lot in that time. Having observed a large number of different types of people do start-ups (of all variations), the conclusion I've reached is that there is a genetic component to it for some people that gives them a larger buffer against that fear, and for others it's a rather terrifying leap no matter what. There's something abnormally wired in my brain as it pertains to the risk concern of starting a business. Rather than being oblivious to the odds, I don't feel the same fear that most do when confronted with that. I have a normal sense of fear around most things, for example I'm not a huge risk taker about thrills (wingsuit? nope), and I would be afraid to run into a burning building like most people would. I believe it's an aspect some people are born with, for whatever reason and however it functions exactly, as I've met a number of other entrepreneurs that have an extra large buffer against that dread, which from the outside comes across as unusually non-chalant. I also think it gets to everyone at some point, even those more naturally resistant to it; I've had some really difficult stretches of time that burned that buffer thoroughly. Then I'm right back to wanting to do the next thing; I can't explain it other than that there seems to be a throttle missing. If you have that throttle, you have to force yourself to override it; if you don't, you have to learn to restrain yourself while having a less healthy sense of fear about it.

sgarman 9y ago

Any tips for dealing with GERD? My doctor hasn't really helped at all.

jacques_chester 9y ago
I may have been using poetic license. For me it's usually responded to medication.

adventured 9y ago

> I don't know how people do such things so nonchalantly, so oblivious to the near-certainty of total failure I've been starting Internet companies since I was a teenager in the mid 1990s. I've failed a lot in that time. Having observed a large number of different types of people do start-ups (of all variations), the conclusion I've reached is that there is a genetic component to it for some people that gives them a larger buffer against that fear, and for others it's a rather terrifying leap no matter what. There's something abnormally wired in my brain as it pertains to the risk concern of starting a business. Rather than being oblivious to the odds, I don't feel the same fear that most do when confronted with that. I have a normal sense of fear around most things, for example I'm not a huge risk taker about thrills (wingsuit? nope), and I would be afraid to run into a burning building like most people would. I believe it's an aspect some people are born with, for whatever reason and however it functions exactly, as I've met a number of other entrepreneurs that have an extra large buffer against that dread, which from the outside comes across as unusually non-chalant. I also think it gets to everyone at some point, even those more naturally resistant to it; I've had some really difficult stretches of time that burned that buffer thoroughly. Then I'm right back to wanting to do the next thing; I can't explain it other than that there seems to be a throttle missing. If you have that throttle, you have to force yourself to override it; if you don't, you have to learn to restrain yourself while having a less healthy sense of fear about it.