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I might be too sentimental (knowing that it's PR speak and therefore downplayed) the last paragraph strikes me as sheer hell. "What I've realized is that the l

I might be too sentimental (knowing that it's PR speak and therefore downplayed) the last paragraph strikes me as sheer hell. "What I've realized is that the last few years of living in such a singular environment have taken a huge toll on my life and started affecting my health. My friends, what I consider to be my home, and my life are back in Silicon Valley, which is also much closer to my family. Seeing how much I've left behind these past few years, it is clear to me that the time has come to return,"

mikekchar 10y ago
Was he in China? Culture shock can be quite devastating. And you might think that after 3 1/2 years that you get used to your new environment, but it can actually get progressively worse. I was pretty lucky that when I moved to Japan I instantly felt at home. I've seen people pretty much melt down from the stress of having all their values brought into question and everything that they thought was common sense thrown out of the window. Even when you have a good gig and you love what you are doing, it can be impossible to continue. The worst bit is that it can actually be harder to return because without knowing it, you can change. And everything your remember about home is a little different. I remember the first time I went abroad, when I returned I felt that I lost my home. It took me years to find a new one.
- sho_hn 10y ago
  This rings true. I'm a German living in Korea, and there's a fair number of Western foreigners here who eventually grow restless and unhappy, or even embittered. It's usually the people who came for economic reasons, without strong interest in or ties to Korean culture - they have no positives to be able to offset the sometimes very real negatives, and it slowly whittles them away. It's not smart to move somewhere if you don't have a couple of sure-fire things you know you will get joy out of on a consistent basis at the destination.
  - da02 10y ago
    What brought you to Korea? Did you learn some of the Korean language before moving?
    - sho_hn 10y ago
      Yep, I went to school in Berlin to study Korean for quite some time before the move, along with self-study before that. Basically, at some point I turned my hobbies into my career, so I needed new hobbies/outlets and ended up picking "learn Korean" for a bunch of reasons (I had done some light work on a CJK input stack and feel in love with Hangeul in a geeky sort of way, a layman's interest in linguistics, some Korean colleagues/acquaintances and a strong interest in the pop culture and history - music, movies, contrasting Korea's 20th century with Germany's, etc.). Over time this and spending some time in the country changed the make-up of my social circle a lot (more and more people also learning Korean, or being involved with Korea somehow, e.g. ... being Korean :). Eventually I moved over and basically already had a support network of local friends and activities (people to hang out with, a weekly engineer meet-up, etc.) so it went pretty smoothly. I've been here long enough now that the honeymoon period is definitely over and I've seen a fair amount of the pressures/stresses of life in Korea either up-close or as people close to me went through them. Yet I enjoy so much of what's going in and what's available, and the people close to me, so it's a good life. Many Western foreigners in Korea are in a very different place. There's a large swath that came over in 2007-2011 as English teachers after the US recession, because $13.5/hour for English teaching in Seoul beat $7.50/hour at Starbucks in Des Moines, and that's all they could do with a sub-optimal undergrad degree. Yet that job offers a promotion path to almost none (along with many English schools in Korea being more or less scam businesses, not-so-wholesome) and they often don't acquire any marketable skills good for anything else while doing it, and the money made as an English teacher isn't good enough to support anything but a bachelor lifestyle in Seoul. And they often don't speak Korean and don't feel any strong ties to Korean culture. That can get pretty stressful and frustrating.
      - mikekchar 10y ago
        That's really interesting because it is very similar to my reasons for going to Japan. I made a semi-random choice to learn Japanese. Because I was busy with work, I couldn't really afford the time to study properly and I made the fateful decision to move to Japan so that learning Japanese would be one of my job requirements ;-) I really think that language is a gateway to the culture. It hacks with your mind so that things you wouldn't accept without the language, seem completely reasonable with it. In Japan (and I suspect it might be similar in Korea) language is often the only real barrier for being accepted by other people in the culture. You go from being some scary foreigner, to being a semi-celebrity that everyone wants to talk to (hmmm... it probably helps that I live in the countryside ;-) ).
  - hocuspocus 10y ago
    I lived nearly 5 years in Korea and it was indeed gradually driving me crazy. I didn't move for economic reasons and I was enjoying enough positives to make the negatives bearable, but in my case the lack of fulfillment at work eventually became too much. That said I have two friends who stayed in Korea but moved to a more reasonable company (Coupang) and they're having a good time.
    - sho_hn 10y ago
      What did you work as? A lot of Western foreigners in Korea work as English teachers, which indeed rarely offers any sort of long-term promotion path (see my longer comment). Even outside of that it's very easy to run into a glass ceiling as a foreigner though, yeah. There's relatively few companies where you can work your way up into lead or management positions - though this is often because foreigners simply don't acquire the Korean skills they'd need to manage Koreans. There's some amount of luck and strategizing your career path involved to make it work, and that does leave you with narrow paths to the goal. Engineering and market research/business are probably the easiest fields at least. Don't get me wrong, I'm not really blaming anyone for failing to make it work and getting out. There's a lot of wishes/desires (in choice of job, in choice of lifestyle, etc.) that are legitimately and totally incompatible with life in Korea as a foreigner, yet have nothing wrong about them.
      - hocuspocus 10y ago
        I was a software engineer at the company that makes exploding smartphones. I still had plenty of headroom regarding promotions, and I'd argue that Korean skills are a double-edged sword. In big and rigid corporations, saying that you need luck is an understatement. Short of your VP being fired, it's typically impossible to make significant moves within your company.
        sho_hn 10y ago
        Thanks for sharing. Regarding Korean skills being a double-edged sword, yeah, expectations leveled against you rise with your skills, and there's a high bar before those skills really pay off meaningfully (in a job context - in private life they pay off almost immediately), so there's a tough plateau inbetween. Super interesting that you're in Berlin now - that's where I came from.
- drzaiusapelord 10y ago
  > Culture shock can be quite devastating. I find its not as much as being in a place where the people would never, ever accept you as one of their own. To them, you're something to be avoided and barely tolerated. This is why Westerners have a lot of trouble in China or Japan, but an American spending a few years in Germany or England or France isn't a big deal. The elephant in the room is a certain level of acceptable racism that hurts foreign workers. Some nations are better at this than others.
  - jza00425 10y ago
    You think Asians do not have the same problem when they are in West? Asian are already treated as foreigners no matter how many generations
    - drzaiusapelord 10y ago
      I think its easy to nitpick the flaws of western melting pot societies while ignoring that many asian societies are not remotely melting pots and citizenship is near impossible to get. The number of immigrants from Asia to the states shows that there's something desirable about its culture. How many Americans move to China or Japan and attain citizenship? Not many. Its seen as best as a temporary work gig dues to the complete lack of acceptance of foreigners and ethnocentrism there.
      - 77pt77 10y ago
        > citizenship is near impossible to get The requirements for naturalizing as a Japanese citizen are actually quite reasonable both in paper and practice.
      - jza00425 10y ago
        I did not even talk about the flaws the West has. It is about majority and minority. There is always a disadvantage for minority, especially psychologically. You just love to jump to conclusion that Western culture is better and other cultures are worse and find the evidence to serve your goal.
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- max_im 10y ago
  He was living in Beijing. As a Chinese-speaking westerner who lived there for a year, I can tell you the air pollution alone is enough to do it. While reports seem mixed on whether he loved his gig like you did, I imagine his family's culture shock was probably creating a great deal of stress as well similar to how you described.
- baby 10y ago
  The key is to have friends. With friends anywhere is home, without friends and you feel like a stranger.
- seertaak 10y ago
  > I've seen people pretty much melt down from the stress of having all their values brought into question and everything that they thought was common sense thrown out of the window. I'm curious as to what values are so different in China. Could you give an example, please? For my part, I've lived in Argentina, USA, France, Spain, German, and the UK. I've found that values are pretty similar. Nothing that makes me feel shockingly out of place. But they're all "European" countries, hence the question.
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  - zhengyi13 10y ago
    I lived as a student at Beida for a full year, between 96 to 97. I saw Deng die, and the return of Hong Kong. At least at the time, three things always struck me: 1) The pollution was awful -- we were in in Qinghuadaxue for fully one month before the sky finally cleared enough that we could see the Fragrant Hills - we literally had no idea they were there. I re-visited China again in 2013 I think, and it's just worse. There can be no overstatement of how bad it is, and this is what I thought of immediately when Mr Barra mentioned his health. 2) Culturally... No one queued. Ever. For anything. At the McDonald's at Tiananmen square, you had to physically shove your way forward through a solid crowd 15+ feet deep, wave your money at the cashier, and once they had taken your money, then you could give them your order. In 2013, I didn't see this sort of no-queueing behavior, but I had only two weeks in country that time. 3) Social mores are a little odd. You could have a conversation in a private place with a local (like, a taxi driver in cab) and they'd talk all about how awful and stupid the government was. But prostitution? No, we don't have that here. HIV? Oh, that's a foreign disease. Gay people? We don't have them here either. And about that last, I don't think this is any longer the case, but at the time in 96, there was one gay bar in the entirety of Beijing (Yi Ban Yi Ban, IIRC), and they were raided/harassed on a semi-frequent basis. At least in 2013, the public spitting was greatly reduced, but I still saw children being guided by parents to pee on the street. China was an amazing experience as a student, and the Chinese people I got to know directly (i.e. outside of official functions) were wonderful and welcoming. But boy howdy, there were some rough edges to public life.
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seanmcdirmid 10y ago
He was in Beijing. The pollution alone is extremely tough to deal with. I just came back in August from a 9 year stint, it was fun, but you eventually have to go back; Beijing isn't the kind of place you can stay at forever.
kitschshrine 10y ago
He was talking about things in China like Poisonous air - "pollution levels hovering over 12 times the level recommended by the World Health Organization" http://theweek.com/articles/672007/filth-breathe-china http://theweek.com/articles/672007/filth-breathe-china Poisonous food: "Fake Chinese seasoning ring, operating for 10 years using cancerous industrial ingredients" http://shanghaiist.com/2017/01/17/fake_seasoning_factories.php http://shanghaiist.com/2017/01/17/fake_seasoning_factories.p... Dirty water: "Shanghai water supply hit by 100-tonne wave of garbage" https://www.theguardian.com/world/2016/dec/23/shanghai-water-supply-hit-by-100-tonne-wave-of-garbage https://www.theguardian.com/world/2016/dec/23/shanghai-water...
- seanmcdirmid 10y ago
  All expats fall into this trap eventually. There is so much crazy stuff going on, we fixate on it, since it is a situation that directly effects us. If it wasn't for the pollution and food safety issues, china wouldn't be such a bad place to live, though.
  - kitschshrine 10y ago
    There are still other issues in China like - censorship - bad access to world internet - corruption - zenophobia/racism - bad manners/behaviors from locals - no weed - food delicacies (mexican guacamole, european chocolate, real cheeseburger, etc)
    - esturk 10y ago
      What do you mean by no weed? Just like in many states where it is illegal, you just need to know people.
      - seanmcdirmid 10y ago
        Weed grows along the great wall in Beijing. The raves around the wall are infamous.
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colordrops 10y ago
I lived in China for over eight years and saw my health progressively get worse, finally culminating in cancer. Someone who is not a native and familiar with the dos and don'ts of China will walk into a lot of health traps - you have to walk a narrow line and watch yourself to stay healthy. I left, and my health has improved immensely.
- mtw 10y ago
  Are you saying that China got you sick?
  - colordrops 10y ago
    I definitely felt ill a lot after meals and my gastrointestinal tract was a disaster. I felt ill on days with a lot of air pollution. My immune system was always freaking out and I got lots of rashes and other ailments. As for whether the cancer was caused by my presence in China, I can never know for sure, but the type I got is extremely low in males in the US, and the location with the highest rate on earth is north east Asia, so it seems likely.

mikekchar 10y ago

Was he in China? Culture shock can be quite devastating. And you might think that after 3 1/2 years that you get used to your new environment, but it can actually get progressively worse. I was pretty lucky that when I moved to Japan I instantly felt at home. I've seen people pretty much melt down from the stress of having all their values brought into question and everything that they thought was common sense thrown out of the window. Even when you have a good gig and you love what you are doing, it can be impossible to continue. The worst bit is that it can actually be harder to return because without knowing it, you can change. And everything your remember about home is a little different. I remember the first time I went abroad, when I returned I felt that I lost my home. It took me years to find a new one.

sho_hn 10y ago
This rings true. I'm a German living in Korea, and there's a fair number of Western foreigners here who eventually grow restless and unhappy, or even embittered. It's usually the people who came for economic reasons, without strong interest in or ties to Korean culture - they have no positives to be able to offset the sometimes very real negatives, and it slowly whittles them away. It's not smart to move somewhere if you don't have a couple of sure-fire things you know you will get joy out of on a consistent basis at the destination.
- da02 10y ago
  What brought you to Korea? Did you learn some of the Korean language before moving?
  - sho_hn 10y ago
    Yep, I went to school in Berlin to study Korean for quite some time before the move, along with self-study before that. Basically, at some point I turned my hobbies into my career, so I needed new hobbies/outlets and ended up picking "learn Korean" for a bunch of reasons (I had done some light work on a CJK input stack and feel in love with Hangeul in a geeky sort of way, a layman's interest in linguistics, some Korean colleagues/acquaintances and a strong interest in the pop culture and history - music, movies, contrasting Korea's 20th century with Germany's, etc.). Over time this and spending some time in the country changed the make-up of my social circle a lot (more and more people also learning Korean, or being involved with Korea somehow, e.g. ... being Korean :). Eventually I moved over and basically already had a support network of local friends and activities (people to hang out with, a weekly engineer meet-up, etc.) so it went pretty smoothly. I've been here long enough now that the honeymoon period is definitely over and I've seen a fair amount of the pressures/stresses of life in Korea either up-close or as people close to me went through them. Yet I enjoy so much of what's going in and what's available, and the people close to me, so it's a good life. Many Western foreigners in Korea are in a very different place. There's a large swath that came over in 2007-2011 as English teachers after the US recession, because $13.5/hour for English teaching in Seoul beat $7.50/hour at Starbucks in Des Moines, and that's all they could do with a sub-optimal undergrad degree. Yet that job offers a promotion path to almost none (along with many English schools in Korea being more or less scam businesses, not-so-wholesome) and they often don't acquire any marketable skills good for anything else while doing it, and the money made as an English teacher isn't good enough to support anything but a bachelor lifestyle in Seoul. And they often don't speak Korean and don't feel any strong ties to Korean culture. That can get pretty stressful and frustrating.
    - mikekchar 10y ago
      That's really interesting because it is very similar to my reasons for going to Japan. I made a semi-random choice to learn Japanese. Because I was busy with work, I couldn't really afford the time to study properly and I made the fateful decision to move to Japan so that learning Japanese would be one of my job requirements ;-) I really think that language is a gateway to the culture. It hacks with your mind so that things you wouldn't accept without the language, seem completely reasonable with it. In Japan (and I suspect it might be similar in Korea) language is often the only real barrier for being accepted by other people in the culture. You go from being some scary foreigner, to being a semi-celebrity that everyone wants to talk to (hmmm... it probably helps that I live in the countryside ;-) ).
- hocuspocus 10y ago
  I lived nearly 5 years in Korea and it was indeed gradually driving me crazy. I didn't move for economic reasons and I was enjoying enough positives to make the negatives bearable, but in my case the lack of fulfillment at work eventually became too much. That said I have two friends who stayed in Korea but moved to a more reasonable company (Coupang) and they're having a good time.
  - sho_hn 10y ago
    What did you work as? A lot of Western foreigners in Korea work as English teachers, which indeed rarely offers any sort of long-term promotion path (see my longer comment). Even outside of that it's very easy to run into a glass ceiling as a foreigner though, yeah. There's relatively few companies where you can work your way up into lead or management positions - though this is often because foreigners simply don't acquire the Korean skills they'd need to manage Koreans. There's some amount of luck and strategizing your career path involved to make it work, and that does leave you with narrow paths to the goal. Engineering and market research/business are probably the easiest fields at least. Don't get me wrong, I'm not really blaming anyone for failing to make it work and getting out. There's a lot of wishes/desires (in choice of job, in choice of lifestyle, etc.) that are legitimately and totally incompatible with life in Korea as a foreigner, yet have nothing wrong about them.
    - hocuspocus 10y ago
      I was a software engineer at the company that makes exploding smartphones. I still had plenty of headroom regarding promotions, and I'd argue that Korean skills are a double-edged sword. In big and rigid corporations, saying that you need luck is an understatement. Short of your VP being fired, it's typically impossible to make significant moves within your company.
      - sho_hn 10y ago
        Thanks for sharing. Regarding Korean skills being a double-edged sword, yeah, expectations leveled against you rise with your skills, and there's a high bar before those skills really pay off meaningfully (in a job context - in private life they pay off almost immediately), so there's a tough plateau inbetween. Super interesting that you're in Berlin now - that's where I came from.
drzaiusapelord 10y ago
> Culture shock can be quite devastating. I find its not as much as being in a place where the people would never, ever accept you as one of their own. To them, you're something to be avoided and barely tolerated. This is why Westerners have a lot of trouble in China or Japan, but an American spending a few years in Germany or England or France isn't a big deal. The elephant in the room is a certain level of acceptable racism that hurts foreign workers. Some nations are better at this than others.
- jza00425 10y ago
  You think Asians do not have the same problem when they are in West? Asian are already treated as foreigners no matter how many generations
  - drzaiusapelord 10y ago
    I think its easy to nitpick the flaws of western melting pot societies while ignoring that many asian societies are not remotely melting pots and citizenship is near impossible to get. The number of immigrants from Asia to the states shows that there's something desirable about its culture. How many Americans move to China or Japan and attain citizenship? Not many. Its seen as best as a temporary work gig dues to the complete lack of acceptance of foreigners and ethnocentrism there.
    - 77pt77 10y ago
      > citizenship is near impossible to get The requirements for naturalizing as a Japanese citizen are actually quite reasonable both in paper and practice.
    - jza00425 10y ago
      I did not even talk about the flaws the West has. It is about majority and minority. There is always a disadvantage for minority, especially psychologically. You just love to jump to conclusion that Western culture is better and other cultures are worse and find the evidence to serve your goal.
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max_im 10y ago
He was living in Beijing. As a Chinese-speaking westerner who lived there for a year, I can tell you the air pollution alone is enough to do it. While reports seem mixed on whether he loved his gig like you did, I imagine his family's culture shock was probably creating a great deal of stress as well similar to how you described.
baby 10y ago
The key is to have friends. With friends anywhere is home, without friends and you feel like a stranger.
seertaak 10y ago
> I've seen people pretty much melt down from the stress of having all their values brought into question and everything that they thought was common sense thrown out of the window. I'm curious as to what values are so different in China. Could you give an example, please? For my part, I've lived in Argentina, USA, France, Spain, German, and the UK. I've found that values are pretty similar. Nothing that makes me feel shockingly out of place. But they're all "European" countries, hence the question.
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- zhengyi13 10y ago
  I lived as a student at Beida for a full year, between 96 to 97. I saw Deng die, and the return of Hong Kong. At least at the time, three things always struck me: 1) The pollution was awful -- we were in in Qinghuadaxue for fully one month before the sky finally cleared enough that we could see the Fragrant Hills - we literally had no idea they were there. I re-visited China again in 2013 I think, and it's just worse. There can be no overstatement of how bad it is, and this is what I thought of immediately when Mr Barra mentioned his health. 2) Culturally... No one queued. Ever. For anything. At the McDonald's at Tiananmen square, you had to physically shove your way forward through a solid crowd 15+ feet deep, wave your money at the cashier, and once they had taken your money, then you could give them your order. In 2013, I didn't see this sort of no-queueing behavior, but I had only two weeks in country that time. 3) Social mores are a little odd. You could have a conversation in a private place with a local (like, a taxi driver in cab) and they'd talk all about how awful and stupid the government was. But prostitution? No, we don't have that here. HIV? Oh, that's a foreign disease. Gay people? We don't have them here either. And about that last, I don't think this is any longer the case, but at the time in 96, there was one gay bar in the entirety of Beijing (Yi Ban Yi Ban, IIRC), and they were raided/harassed on a semi-frequent basis. At least in 2013, the public spitting was greatly reduced, but I still saw children being guided by parents to pee on the street. China was an amazing experience as a student, and the Chinese people I got to know directly (i.e. outside of official functions) were wonderful and welcoming. But boy howdy, there were some rough edges to public life.
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seanmcdirmid 10y ago

He was in Beijing. The pollution alone is extremely tough to deal with. I just came back in August from a 9 year stint, it was fun, but you eventually have to go back; Beijing isn't the kind of place you can stay at forever.

kitschshrine 10y ago

He was talking about things in China like Poisonous air - "pollution levels hovering over 12 times the level recommended by the World Health Organization" http://theweek.com/articles/672007/filth-breathe-china http://theweek.com/articles/672007/filth-breathe-china Poisonous food: "Fake Chinese seasoning ring, operating for 10 years using cancerous industrial ingredients" http://shanghaiist.com/2017/01/17/fake_seasoning_factories.php http://shanghaiist.com/2017/01/17/fake_seasoning_factories.p... Dirty water: "Shanghai water supply hit by 100-tonne wave of garbage" https://www.theguardian.com/world/2016/dec/23/shanghai-water-supply-hit-by-100-tonne-wave-of-garbage https://www.theguardian.com/world/2016/dec/23/shanghai-water...

seanmcdirmid 10y ago
All expats fall into this trap eventually. There is so much crazy stuff going on, we fixate on it, since it is a situation that directly effects us. If it wasn't for the pollution and food safety issues, china wouldn't be such a bad place to live, though.
- kitschshrine 10y ago
  There are still other issues in China like - censorship - bad access to world internet - corruption - zenophobia/racism - bad manners/behaviors from locals - no weed - food delicacies (mexican guacamole, european chocolate, real cheeseburger, etc)
  - esturk 10y ago
    What do you mean by no weed? Just like in many states where it is illegal, you just need to know people.
    - seanmcdirmid 10y ago
      Weed grows along the great wall in Beijing. The raves around the wall are infamous.
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colordrops 10y ago

I lived in China for over eight years and saw my health progressively get worse, finally culminating in cancer. Someone who is not a native and familiar with the dos and don'ts of China will walk into a lot of health traps - you have to walk a narrow line and watch yourself to stay healthy. I left, and my health has improved immensely.

mtw 10y ago
Are you saying that China got you sick?
- colordrops 10y ago
  I definitely felt ill a lot after meals and my gastrointestinal tract was a disaster. I felt ill on days with a lot of air pollution. My immune system was always freaking out and I got lots of rashes and other ailments. As for whether the cancer was caused by my presence in China, I can never know for sure, but the type I got is extremely low in males in the US, and the location with the highest rate on earth is north east Asia, so it seems likely.