I wonder if he would be happier if he knew how people would miss him. I still sometimes say to myself "Uriel will like this, I'll show him..... Oh no I won't".

I wonder if he would be happier if he knew how people would miss him. I still sometimes say to myself "Uriel will like this, I'll show him..... Oh no I won't". I am not as angry with him about it as I was but still full of regret that I didn't do more to get him away from his situation. I knew he was suicidal, I knee he had bought this suicide pills too, my last Skype message is "don't drink the wrong water" - which helpfully pops up in the "most recent" window when I use Skype. At least I have stopped crying about it. As he would say "everything sucks, some things suck less"