While it is certainly within your rights to end your own life, the desire to do so often arises from life transients or changes. Also, not to criticize, but if

While it is certainly within your rights to end your own life, the desire to do so often arises from life transients or changes. Also, not to criticize, but if HN has been a cornerstone, you might want to look into a wider variety of building materials. HN isn't bad, but compared to the wide gamut of life? hardly a comparison. Anyway, I know it's not so simple, whatever your reasonings. I've been there and I've talked with friends who were where you are. If you lack a social support network (like I do) I really recommend getting a psychologist you can trust; huge in understanding thoughts and feelings. But I hope you find that with some better coping mechanisms, life is easier to manage, and you'd be more up for living it than ending it.