The existing top comments (tptacek and calcsam) have already covered the useful practical advice for your situation. So, I just wanted to say that I really fee

The existing top comments (tptacek and calcsam) have already covered the useful practical advice for your situation. So, I just wanted to say that I really feel for you. Cancer sucks. A stranger across the ocean is tearing up just reading about your situation and wish I could help in some way. So, I am sure there are a lot of real friends and family in your life who care about you and will help you get through this. Don't be afraid to ask them for help when you need it. You aren't alone.