My opinion is that you should seek out a mental health professional, spiritual advisor, or both. This may be the side effect of something else in your life, an

My opinion is that you should seek out a mental health professional, spiritual advisor, or both. This may be the side effect of something else in your life, and an objective third party can often help you to identify it. These types of problems affect everyone at some point (and often times, multiple points) in their life, which is why so many people turn to drugs, alcohol, or any other of a myriad of addictive substances and behaviors. The crux of my opinion is this: You are normal, and the fact that you experience unwanted feelings is normal. Sadly, it is also normal for people to internalize these feelings and be crippled by them in some way, rather than simply seek out someone who can help them. What I want for you is to overcome it. Please do talk to someone, so that you can clear your mind, have better understanding of your personal goals, and go on to even greater things!