I think you have three fundamental problems. 1. You think your best years are behind you. - I hope they will but no amount of my words will convince you they a

I think you have three fundamental problems. 1. You think your best years are behind you. - I hope they will but no amount of my words will convince you they are not. 2. You consider this failing - Try thinking about it as learning. Doctors go through 10+ years of education before they can do what they do well. 3. You "just want to be a business". - You need to be solving a problem not building a business. No one is going to pay you because you want to build a business.