You need to go slow. It might take easily 2 years just to build your core strength, improve joints and tendons before you can do all those crazy exercises. Obvi

You need to go slow. It might take easily 2 years just to build your core strength, improve joints and tendons before you can do all those crazy exercises. Obviously you started too high. Just be patient, don't get distracted by remarks you are weaker than a girl, don't add more than you can handle, and it will come ;-)