This sounds about right for me. I had the same problem as OP and still do, but I've come to realize that the points you've mentioned above are really important.

This sounds about right for me. I had the same problem as OP and still do, but I've come to realize that the points you've mentioned above are really important. I actually never realized how anxious I was, I just never knew I had it. It was really crippling. I've been trying to elevate my anxiety and as a result I've been more productive. I use my github page as indicator, it was empty for 2 years until recently. Almost two months now of me working on new frameworks and my projects.