I have the same struggle. Unfortunately, the solution is to do something, anything, to start until you become more focused and engaged. Since you do like to r

I have the same struggle. Unfortunately, the solution is to do something, anything, to start until you become more focused and engaged. Since you do like to read, consider going off the web to some more sustained thinking on the topic. I can suggest 4 titles that have a wide range of perspective on what underpins "Imposter Syndrome" First, Feeling Strong: the achievement of authentic power was helpful to me. It's more than the self help treatment it was given by it's publishers. Person does a nice job explaining what power is and is not, not for political leaders but by everyone and debunks quit a bit of what passes as power exerted. Second, this is typically framed as a women's problem. Linda Babcock from Carnegie Mellon wrote Women Don't Ask negotiation and gender divide that takes up how those with survivor syndrome undercut themselves before they even get their first job forever bending their income curve for their entire lives. Overcomng Underearning by Barbara Stanny was a surprise sleeper to me. It also takes up money, but it primarily a workbook of exercises that really helped me. It's also useful for groups to do the work and discuss together and might get you off the hot seat with your friends. There is a whole chapter devoted to what your earning more does to your relationships including friends. I suggest taking a look. Last, Loneliness by Caciippo and Patrick. Admittedly, this one is not for the faint of heart but it does talk extensively about the phenomena of isolation, real and perceived and what it does to people individually and collectively. And I will admit, one of the best things I ever did was to get a therapist to help me put it all together. It never goes away but with tools and knowledge, it gets easier. What I learned that is most important is that you cant change yourself alone, by reading a book, you do it among other people so the task is finding the right ones to do it with.