In this essay you haven't mentioned what you're passionate about. Yes it's good to know what you don't like, but knowing what you do like is just as important i

In this essay you haven't mentioned what you're passionate about. Yes it's good to know what you don't like, but knowing what you do like is just as important in this world be it finding a job or going on dates. Something else to keep in mind is that while you'll see a great deal of press about the excitement of tech, the reality is that most of the industry can be dry by nature. And on the flip side the "fun stuff" can be a death march schedule followed by your company going under. By the way I think if you're unhappy that "sucking it up" won't help you over the long run. My advice is to get some help thinking this out: Don't be afraid to find a mentor outside your company, or even go into therapy. And of course talk to peers who work at other companies. Also be open to the idea that your passion might not even be software. Last note: You may have several careers in your life time. If you look around it not always the case that a coder in his or her 20s will be a coder by age 50.