You need to ask the philosophical question of how you determine your self-worth. Is it discovering something new, learning...or is it more important that peopl

You need to ask the philosophical question of how you determine your self-worth. Is it discovering something new, learning...or is it more important that people, the large majority of whom you will never meet, consider you to be brilliant? Is a really a search for knowledge that you are undertaking, or a search for adulation from others. If it's the former, there is more than enough to learn for a number of lifetimes before advancing any branch of mathematics. If it is the latter, I can only pity you, it's a recipe for a sad life.