I was reading through the comments and was thinking exactly what you have concluded. I currently spend my time horribly inefficiently, so I shouldn't be the one

I was reading through the comments and was thinking exactly what you have concluded. I currently spend my time horribly inefficiently, so I shouldn't be the one to complain. The problem for me is that I've chosen a task that shuts almost everybody out of my life (unless I give up or I can muster up the focus and discipline to progress). I am also unemployed, which really further shuts people out of my life. I'm not busy at all, yet too busy to build relationships because I won't get my work done. I also feel like, at least in my field and the fields I am interested in, that you NEED other people to grow. Even if you are sitting alone just reading books or online resources, that is still using something created by other people. On the other hand, I am sure there is some raw creative power in complete isolation, it's just not a productive nor quick way to progress. Anyways, my loneliness is definitely the most urgent motivation I have to work towards growth, employment and subsequently money for me to spend on making myself more socially appealing and probably a more efficient user of my time.