Don't get a therapist, get a manager! Working at a company will help with several of your problems, some of which you already clearly identified (lack of discip

Don't get a therapist, get a manager! Working at a company will help with several of your problems, some of which you already clearly identified (lack of discipline, lack of socialization) and others which apparently are just dawning on you (getting paid peanuts with things like elance, not earning enough to take real week-end breaks and holidays, and probably not having yet started with retirement discounts, hoping you will hit it big before you need them). By all means, keep learning on your spare time and keep planning for a personal piece of work which will bring you pride/recognition/profit (or if possible all three), but at the same time just accept that you may also remain an honest craftsman for a long time, and organize you life accordingly. If you stop living like the solitary genius that you're discovering you're not, and start caring also for more down to earth goals, your life will get more structured, and this will also make it easier to get more friendship and love into your life.