The mental pain of existence, all existential issues, all of it fades away before you've even removed the needle from your vein. I always described heroin to th

The mental pain of existence, all existential issues, all of it fades away before you've even removed the needle from your vein. I always described heroin to those who ask about my experiences as "blissful apathy in a needle". And yes, I've been clean for three years, but whenever I'd go through withdrawals every single nerve ending would be on fire and I'd be hypersensitive to pain. It's an interesting phenomenon. Part of that is caused by your brain downregulating it's own endorphin receptors, as you're providing it with something else that's much more powerful: you take away that stimulus and it takes your body and mind a while to adjust and upregulate those receptors again.