You're a maintenance programmer. And a C++ one at that. That's a hard job. I think you've been trying the live up to the standard of people in the JavaScript/va

You're a maintenance programmer. And a C++ one at that. That's a hard job. I think you've been trying the live up to the standard of people in the JavaScript/valley bubble where each week a new NPM module comes out that's going to revolutionize the world. Get that out of your head. Apply to jobs where you skills are an asset, and a job where you can ultimately move horizontally to something better to your liking.