Honestly, (and definitely n=1 sample size... possibly n=2 with some corroboration with my other friend). I suffered from some pretty bad depression issues back

Honestly, (and definitely n=1 sample size... possibly n=2 with some corroboration with my other friend). I suffered from some pretty bad depression issues back in highschool. The standard is to just throw anti-depressents at you until one sticks. I also hated taking them and would stop abruptly (definitely not a good idea). I'm very certain it caused some lasting issues (my brain just feels slower/less snappy to get things than it did before the treatments). My other friend got it way worse (lots of ED problems in his early 20s). So honestly, I wouldn't be too hard on your own conclusions.