I'm doubtful that any advice here would make any meaningful difference, but as a pathological optimist, I hope I'm wrong :-) . Try reading "The seven habits of

I'm doubtful that any advice here would make any meaningful difference, but as a pathological optimist, I hope I'm wrong :-) . Try reading "The seven habits of highly effective people" by Steven Covey, at worst you've wasted a few hours, but I think there's a lot of useful advice in there about how to change your circumstances.