first of all, relax. I'd do anything to be a 18 years old programmer. Can't you get some help from your family? If you're really broke, that would at least cove

first of all, relax. I'd do anything to be a 18 years old programmer. Can't you get some help from your family? If you're really broke, that would at least cover your food expenses and such. Otherwise, just keep looking and programming, you seem really passionate about it and started at a very young age (I begun programming when I was 22). If you really need some money, try anything that pays your rent/food/etc. and on the side keep looking for programming gigs. I don't think it is a matter of luck, so I will just wish you a good night of sleep and a more relaxed mind. Sorry about my english, lack of practice hurts that much.