I've had some problems with security in happiness: I generally feel like that security is just idling -- that the stuff I _really_ want to do if being inhibited

I've had some problems with security in happiness: I generally feel like that security is just idling -- that the stuff I _really_ want to do if being inhibited by the drudgery I have to do to have security. I don't want a stable job unless it feels like an adventure and we make _progress_, not products. That's a feeling I get out of school, not out of work.