What does it even mean to be on the inside? Nobody in my family had any experience with computers. My first programming book was a gift for me when I was ten th

What does it even mean to be on the inside? Nobody in my family had any experience with computers. My first programming book was a gift for me when I was ten that I asked for (it was a learn C++ in 24 hours book). You can imagine how that turned out with nobody there to help me. I didn't understand what variables were let alone how to add the compiler to the path on windows. The only help I had was that my dad bought me the book and I had a family computer in the living room. Am I on the inside?