I've been suicidal on two occasions, and you're perfectly describing my thought process in those moments. I'm sorry that your comment's being downvoted (probab

I've been suicidal on two occasions, and you're perfectly describing my thought process in those moments. I'm sorry that your comment's being downvoted (probably because it's so direct); stepping back and thinking of the progress as biological programming helped me realize I could hack my way out of it to save my life.