Yeah I get that, I really didn't make my thoughts very clear. I get that you want to be happy again, and not play game gear again (or even a modern equivilant)

Yeah I get that, I really didn't make my thoughts very clear. I get that you want to be happy again, and not play game gear again (or even a modern equivilant). Part of my thoughts that I didn't express was that an equivalent or the same thing to what made you happy then likely won't anymore. I get the loneliness, despite having friends I don't feel close to any of them. I never felt lonely when I didn't have friends. In my case, having something I have nothing but apathy towards, only seems to serve as a reminder of that apathy. Sounds like you are way ahead of me in the socializing thing though, my followers, friends, and connections account for very few people, if you are able to care about even one of them please consider yourself lucky, because I as a person who has never had to deal with the stigma of being deemed "abnormal" have no one I care about other than my self.