I see no failure in this. Just a constant drive to do more that is wearing you out. You recognise potential in yourself which is keeping your focus on the futur

I see no failure in this. Just a constant drive to do more that is wearing you out. You recognise potential in yourself which is keeping your focus on the future. The thought of 'why hasn't it happened already' is detracting from finding what makes you happy in the here and now. There's a balance that needs to be struck. You seem focused on changing the world for everyone when in reality you can change the world of just one person or a handful of people and have that matter just as much. I think you may find some of the motivation you need by starting small and creating & shipping something tiny. You need to get to the part of the feedback loop where people are using what you have made and you have an asset for yourself. Your projects don't know if you have a degree or care if investors are on the horizon. What matters is they are enjoyed, finished and used.