Why do you actually care about "what you are achieving"? It seems like programming is your passion, which is an incredible luck in itself (most people don't hav

Why do you actually care about "what you are achieving"? It seems like programming is your passion, which is an incredible luck in itself (most people don't have a passion, and many wish they had) - you should cherish it imo. Also, with time, you can become super-badass dev that will get recognized in the community, and maybe even start something of your own (like an opensource project that is widely used).