I've got the exact same history in terms of my academic career and being a "job-out" but I keep wondering about all the cool research work people like us could

I've got the exact same history in terms of my academic career and being a "job-out" but I keep wondering about all the cool research work people like us could be doing if they would actually be able to study with discipline? I can't study, never been able to without out-of-proportion-huge investments in time and energy - I can't even finish books I really like anymore without brutally "hacking" my ADHD induced distractability and mind-wandering.