Have you considered asking for unpaid leave? I'm not sure about New Zealand, but many companies in the US offer bereavement leave. The company might prefer to

Have you considered asking for unpaid leave? I'm not sure about New Zealand, but many companies in the US offer bereavement leave. The company might prefer to have you back, hopefully refreshed and in better spirits, rather than lose you altogether. In any case, the most important thing is your mental health and happiness. It definitely sounds like you need more time off. You'll be able to find other work, and you have a very understandable explanation for your next employer. Do you have friends you can reach out to? Somewhere to couch surf? I've found that in grief, having something to distract you makes a big difference in keeping you from wallowing in despair. That, and by the sound of it, you're still pretty depressed; please reach out to someone, you don't need to go it alone.