I get the point about hedonism... My fear is that I think the worst is ahead of me. I have been so blessed and when I see suffering around the world, I feel un

I get the point about hedonism... My fear is that I think the worst is ahead of me. I have been so blessed and when I see suffering around the world, I feel undeserving of the good luck. It seems everyone's life has suffering in them and their share of bad luck. I have had challenges but I was able to overcome them. I guess I haven't come across yet of problems where I am helpless. I fear I haven't seen enough and its ahead.. There is also a part of instictive feel that tells me I only have maybe another 3-4 yrs left. For long time I have felt I won't see 45.