I cannot deny I wish I had never gotten hooked. That doesn't mean I do not care or am making flimsy excuses. I am personally responsible for every choice I make

I cannot deny I wish I had never gotten hooked. That doesn't mean I do not care or am making flimsy excuses. I am personally responsible for every choice I make, whether I like the results or not. To benefit my health I live a very non-sedentary lifestyle, drink a liter of water every day(minimum, I live in a desert), eat fresh veggies and home prepared meals daily and rarely eat fast food as it makes me feel heavy & uncomfortable(same goes for chips, bakery sweets, candies, etc). I do not take any pharmaceuticals and do not smoke tailpipe exhaust commuting daily(which is worse?). When not working & walking/smoking on breaks, I am hiking desert washes and game trails. Oh yeah, I'm a butt nazi, too...just because the ignoramuses on the big screen do it, doesn't mean flicking butts is not littering and I couldn't live with myself if I caused a fire that destroyed my playground. My point is, besides the cigs, the marketing department would label me a health nut...6'0" @ 165lbs and still able to carry 80lbs compressors up a ladder or stone a 2000sqft floor when I have off-time from the keyboard. Thanks to the cigs, this witch hunt has made me a 2nd class citizen all the while the majority benevolently deride me while eating big macs, popping 'good' pills to 'manage' their weight problems, idly watching their 'shows' while smoking equivalent fumes in their vehicles everyday. PS: I had three schoolmates with cancer by 9th grade, none smoked, they just lived in N/W Indiana of which they had no choice(I was a transplant). Edit: I NEVER smoke indoors, hate the stale cig smell more than most. My nose olfactory senses are still quite acute at 42yo.